August 8, 2011
Happy 2 year Anniversary my Love!!
I went shopping to try to find the perfect card to express exactly how I felt about you and I realized that that card does not exist. So, I decided to make my own card/letter to try to put into words my feelings for you.
2 years ago today…we decided to make “us” official! There has not been a minute, a second, nanosecond…nothing, when I have regretted making that decision! I PROMISE! I will admit that I was scared – I worried if it was the right decision, I wondered how I could possibly be what you wanted, I worried if we would get along. Two years and a wedding ceremony later, I’m not worried! It truly was the best decision I have ever made – YOU are the best thing in my life – you are my life. You took away not only the worry I had about “us”, but you did, do, and always will take away my worries in general. I know that we can get through anything – we are meant to. I know there is no decision that we cannot pick through and work out, together. You are my very best friend. I am crying as I write this because I am not sure how I made it without you all those years and I know I will never have to make it through anything else by myself because I know I will always have you. As long as I have you, ANYTHING is tolerable. You give me so much strength and courage that you don’t even realize. You make me a better person Amanda. You pick me up when I need it, you support me unconditionally, you love me more than I can see, you make me laugh, you make me cry, you are home….
I know today is no longer our official “anniversary”, but it will forever be so very special to me and I will forever consider myself so lucky that you wanted “me”…..and still do. You are ALL that I want, and so much more than I will ever deserve.
I will always love you ALR!!
Monday, August 8, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Plastic Surgery and My Mom
Last July, my mom informed me that she was going to have some plastic surgery done. This really came as no surprise, as she'd been talking about it for awhile. She's been getting botox and juvederm treatments for awhile. She takes impeccable care of herself, but as she's said, she doesn't feel old at all and she wants her looks to be in line with how her brain feels. A valid point I suppose - I'll report back when I'm 53 like her.
She was getting a brachioplasty and a thighplasty. Essentially, an arm lift and a leg lift. Through her weight loss over the years, she's done a kick ass job of getting herself into shape, however, her 53 year old body had been loosing it's elasticity and there was nothing the gym could do about that. She would be put out completely, which worried the hell out of me, they would make incisions in her armpits and groin, do some lipo to remove the little bit of excess fat she had, then cut skin, pull it taught, and stitch it up. Lovely, right?!?!?
She, as always, thought this would be no big shakes (she has delusions of grandeur, I swear). She expected to be back to work in no time, back on the treadmill in no time, and assumed she would be able to care for herself after the surgery. She agreed to come stay with us and let us take care of her after not having a choice about it. I was unbelievably nervous/scared/worried and then some. My cousin had just almost died from a medical screw up and I wasn't keen on my mom being put to sleep. I tried my best to support her despite my brain screaming, "PLEASE DON'T DO THIS!!!".
Surgery came and went, we picked her up and went home. For obvious reasons, she could not stand up/sit down by herself. For the first two days, she was in and out of a drug induced state. We'd help get her in/out of the recliner she decided would be best for her vs getting into/out of a bed. At her one week follow up, they said the stitches weren't quite ready to come out and that she had a slight infection at the incision site of her groin. When she sat down one time on her own, she plopped a little too hard and pulled a stitch. This got infected. Doc gave us cream to put on it, and it took a couple weeks to heal - I guess it took this long due to the location. Stitches out at 2 weeks. She got to wear the lovely compression garment for 4 weeks.
Well, here we are, 1 year later. She's in the same recliner again b/c she had to have the surgery REDONE!!!!! She wasn't 100% pleased with the results form the first surgery. Doc told her it can take multiple times to reach the desired results. I know, I know....you are probably thinking the same thing I was...bullshit, he's just trying to make more money!!!!! Well, there is no charge for this time around, b/c it is still considered part of the first surgery. Some peace of mind. So this time around, there was no lipo on the legs, only a little bit on the arms. Incisions this time went from pit down and groin down, vs the horizontal nature of them the first time. They said the procedure went well and that she did fine.
She's been home for about 3 hours and woke up, so we gave her a pain pill to stay ahead of the pain. She got up to walk a trip around the couch and keep things moving a little, and upon getting up, the sheet she'd been laying on was soiled w/ a spot of blood about 6 inches wide. We had her check and she said it is blood. The spot on the sheet was wet and new, so didn't appear to be old incision blood from when she first laid down. She blotted with tissue and said it is new blood, but not excessive. She's laying down now, and we are going to check the spot again in an hour to see how much more blood is produced. If a similarly large amount, we'll call Doc.
My stomach is in knots and I feel like I could throw up. Thanks mom...hope your thighs look great!!
She was getting a brachioplasty and a thighplasty. Essentially, an arm lift and a leg lift. Through her weight loss over the years, she's done a kick ass job of getting herself into shape, however, her 53 year old body had been loosing it's elasticity and there was nothing the gym could do about that. She would be put out completely, which worried the hell out of me, they would make incisions in her armpits and groin, do some lipo to remove the little bit of excess fat she had, then cut skin, pull it taught, and stitch it up. Lovely, right?!?!?
She, as always, thought this would be no big shakes (she has delusions of grandeur, I swear). She expected to be back to work in no time, back on the treadmill in no time, and assumed she would be able to care for herself after the surgery. She agreed to come stay with us and let us take care of her after not having a choice about it. I was unbelievably nervous/scared/worried and then some. My cousin had just almost died from a medical screw up and I wasn't keen on my mom being put to sleep. I tried my best to support her despite my brain screaming, "PLEASE DON'T DO THIS!!!".
Surgery came and went, we picked her up and went home. For obvious reasons, she could not stand up/sit down by herself. For the first two days, she was in and out of a drug induced state. We'd help get her in/out of the recliner she decided would be best for her vs getting into/out of a bed. At her one week follow up, they said the stitches weren't quite ready to come out and that she had a slight infection at the incision site of her groin. When she sat down one time on her own, she plopped a little too hard and pulled a stitch. This got infected. Doc gave us cream to put on it, and it took a couple weeks to heal - I guess it took this long due to the location. Stitches out at 2 weeks. She got to wear the lovely compression garment for 4 weeks.
Well, here we are, 1 year later. She's in the same recliner again b/c she had to have the surgery REDONE!!!!! She wasn't 100% pleased with the results form the first surgery. Doc told her it can take multiple times to reach the desired results. I know, I know....you are probably thinking the same thing I was...bullshit, he's just trying to make more money!!!!! Well, there is no charge for this time around, b/c it is still considered part of the first surgery. Some peace of mind. So this time around, there was no lipo on the legs, only a little bit on the arms. Incisions this time went from pit down and groin down, vs the horizontal nature of them the first time. They said the procedure went well and that she did fine.
She's been home for about 3 hours and woke up, so we gave her a pain pill to stay ahead of the pain. She got up to walk a trip around the couch and keep things moving a little, and upon getting up, the sheet she'd been laying on was soiled w/ a spot of blood about 6 inches wide. We had her check and she said it is blood. The spot on the sheet was wet and new, so didn't appear to be old incision blood from when she first laid down. She blotted with tissue and said it is new blood, but not excessive. She's laying down now, and we are going to check the spot again in an hour to see how much more blood is produced. If a similarly large amount, we'll call Doc.
My stomach is in knots and I feel like I could throw up. Thanks mom...hope your thighs look great!!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Stop Taking Welbutrin for Smoking Cessation
Ok, so part of my first post back in October mentioned that I had quit smoking. 4 days ago, it was 5 months since I quit - October 9, 2010. I used Welbutrin per the advice of my doc. I wanted to use Chantix and experience really kick ass dreams, but all the negative side effects pushed me away from that. So, get on Welbutrin - really easy right. Start taking this pill, bam, you're done. Well, for me, the first 3 days was not great. Well, let me rephrase - first 3 days for my girl was hell. I had an extremely lackadaisical attitude about everything. House burned down?....*shoulder shrugg, eh*, Girl of my dreams leaving me?....*shoulder shrugg, eh*, Lost my job?.....*shoulder shrugg, eh*. Nothing got me exited in a good or bad way. After the 3 days, I guess the medicine leveled out in my system and it got better. I think overall on it, my overall mood/attitude was slightly different. Not horrible, and worth it for the stopping smoking factor, but it was different. Slightly less patient, slightly disinterested.
Well, then came the time to stop. They (info I gathered online) tell you to take it for 3 months when using for smoking cessation. My aunt suggested I take it for 6 months. At month 4 I decided I thought I was ready to stop. I started looking online for info on how to stop taking welbutrin. Aside from learning not to simply stop cold turkey, there is NO information out there. They'll slap you on the shit real quick and are less interested in helping you stop. After getting in touch with the doc, she suggested cutting pills in half. I was taking the 300mg extended release tabs. She said to take half a pill for 2-3 weeks and then take half a pill every other day for 2-3 weeks. This is what I did - 2 weeks of each.
This morning was my last dosage!!! I've been quit smoking for 5 months and 4 days as of now. My desire to smoke is not present. I think about it, but it's a fleeting thought and gone in 30 seconds. Happens mostly after I've put down a few drinks! I feel good and am not afraid about not being on the pills. This last week of 1/2 pill every other day, I've actually looked for my smallest half of a pill to take. I guess with it starting to be out of my system, it was affecting me slightly like it did originally. If any problems come up, I'll be back to tell about them. Fingers crossed.....no more smoking for me!
Well, then came the time to stop. They (info I gathered online) tell you to take it for 3 months when using for smoking cessation. My aunt suggested I take it for 6 months. At month 4 I decided I thought I was ready to stop. I started looking online for info on how to stop taking welbutrin. Aside from learning not to simply stop cold turkey, there is NO information out there. They'll slap you on the shit real quick and are less interested in helping you stop. After getting in touch with the doc, she suggested cutting pills in half. I was taking the 300mg extended release tabs. She said to take half a pill for 2-3 weeks and then take half a pill every other day for 2-3 weeks. This is what I did - 2 weeks of each.
This morning was my last dosage!!! I've been quit smoking for 5 months and 4 days as of now. My desire to smoke is not present. I think about it, but it's a fleeting thought and gone in 30 seconds. Happens mostly after I've put down a few drinks! I feel good and am not afraid about not being on the pills. This last week of 1/2 pill every other day, I've actually looked for my smallest half of a pill to take. I guess with it starting to be out of my system, it was affecting me slightly like it did originally. If any problems come up, I'll be back to tell about them. Fingers crossed.....no more smoking for me!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
VD
Valentine's Day that is.......was amazing!! My girl surprised me Friday when I got home from work. We were going to Chicago for the weekend!!!! For 10 days prior to Friday, she'd been giving me clues each day, that were hints about what my V day present was. Pictures of a burlesque dancer, polar bear cubs, pair of white sox, t-bone steak, lantern, the Obama family, a whale. Everything had ties to Chicago. We left Friday night at 8 o'clock and were in the Windy City by 10. Saturday was spent at Shedd Aquarium (awesomeage!!!), we had dinner a Kit Kat that evening with her cousin and cousin's friend, Sunday she rented a car for us to drive to Milwaukee to see my best friend and her partner and their new baby!!! Then Monday back home :(. Monday night, we spent dinner at Fleming's Steak House, then had drinks at a bar after. Got 2 very sweet cards with hand written notes and several lotto scratch offs. Couldn't have asked for a better Valentine!!! She is my world and I adore absolutely everything about her.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
NYE 2010
Spent New Years Eve at the farm with mom, gram/pop, Pam, and my girl. Terry came over for a bit, Chris and his crew came over for a bit too. Played a few rounds of Outburst which was fun. Had a few drinks. Watched some of the NYE shows on tv. For the countdown, it was us, mom, and gram - everyone else had left or fell asleep. A fairly uneventful NYE but was good to spend with family. Saturday, we were serious mattress backs. When we finally woke up, we headed to the farm for New Year's Day dinner. The old folks all had the traditional hog jowl, black eyed peas, and cornbread. They also had a cabbage casserole and broccoli cornbread. Gram fixed us a roast and mashed potatoes. Was very good! Damn good chocolate cake for desert - YUM! AC got a call Saturday morning that her doc scheduled a surgery for Sunday at 7:30am. So, we would have to cut our visit at the farm short and leave Saturday night. We took down all of gram's xmas decorations for her. Went to Amanda's for a Wii party and snick snacks. Went to Wally and got some flowers and put them out at the cemetery. Was first time I'd been there on New Year's Day - broke down, felt good. Pulled up the old flowers and put in the new ones. Hello 2011.
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